You may say...

I'm a dreamer.

But really
I am such a dreamer.

I want so much for my self; out of this world.
But I'm kind of doubting how much of it I will actually get.
I've realized I'm more talk than anything.
I'm so scared of the future, to be honest. And yet...other times I'm waiting for it with open arms.
And it scares the crap out of me when some of my friends are so ready and I'm so....not.
I don't want to be left behind...
But I don't want to feel like I have to do anything just because my friend(s) is(are) are doing it.
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHH

I can no longer see right in front of me.