Well...

I was really proud of that last blog. Haha.
Anyway...
I only have to go to school for 1 [!!!] more day!
Well, this semester anyway.
I bought Christmas presents for: Alex, Callie, Hock, Hunter, Jordan, Micah, Mariah, and Ashley. I gave Hunter, Mariah, and Ashley their presents today. They all liked their regalo [gift], which I'm glad about. Or, at least, they acted like it. Haha, which I'm glad about.
Tomorrow I'm giving Callie, Jordan, and Micah their presents. *crosses fingers*
I'm not giving Alex hers because she's family. She'll get it later. And Hock...what would be the point of taking it to school when he won't be there? Heh.
Christmas feels strange this year. I don't really want any presents. I do, but.... it doesn't feel like it matters if I got anything or not.

Dear Santa,
Don't worry about bringing me anything this Christmas. I would like it--in place of my gift--if you focused on World Peace and World Hunger. And if you accomplish this, leave me a note under the tree instead of a bunch of presents. "Let there be Peace on Earth and let it begin with me..."

Thanks,
Andie


If only. Come on Santa! If you can fit down chimneys and deliver presents all over the world in one night, surely you can stop the rest of the children from starving and keep them out of soldier's uniforms?

"For if everyday could be just like Christmas/ What a wonderful world this would be" --Elvis

"A very merry Christmas/ And a happy New Year/ Let's hope it's a good one/ Without any fear/ And so this is Christmas/ For weak and for strong/ For rich and the poor ones/ The world is so wrong/ And so happy Christmas/ For black and for white/ For yellow and red ones/ Let's stop all the fight"
--John Lennon

Hasta luego,
Xxxxx

some thoughts....I just happen to think in poem form

We fight so hard for choice
For freedom
But we're speechless
Nobody stands up
We all stay seated
And when we feel threatened
We automatically
Want to "nuke 'em"
Since he shot my brother
And I don't understand
Their ways
So they must die
But if you ask me
I cant give you a good reason why
But...they must be wrong, MUST be bad
And over seas the man that shot my brother
Had his father and a friend
Shot and killed...
By my brother
And I don't understand their ways
So... we need to kill kill kill
Spill spill spill
Blood
Because... I don't know
And everyone's so depressed
And thinking about death
We love our pills!
Always been told we're not worth anything
This world holds nothing for me
So we take our lives
Before we've even begun to live
And we're young and giving our hearts away
Hearts are worn on our sleeves
We are crushed by every little thing
Picking up the pieces of ourselves
Glued quickly back together
And we hide behind smiles
Secretly, the only way out is Grim
But we're much too chicken
I am so afraid to be different
What will they say?
How do I know they're all not lying?
I don't know.
So I don't do.
I don't take a stand
It's been so long since anyone has REALLY fought The Man
I think I can I think I can
How long wwill it be till I don't need you holding my hand?
STAND STAND STAND
Stop sitting
You can't get anywhere in a chair
Wave your hands in the air
Like you just don't care
Hold your breath
Take the plunge
We throw the words
PEACE and
LOVE around
Until they don't really mean anything
Is there any sincerity
left?
Left, right, left, right
We're all herded like cattle
Only, we're usually not slaughtered
Into the building
Obey the authority
They're older, they're in charge
So they're right
That's wrong
Rules Rules Rules
Where is all this freedom I've heard about?
Isn't that why we're so great?
Let freedom ring!
Well, the only ringing is in my ears
From listening to so much talk for all these years
Talk Talk Talk
When can I see some action?
Where is you opinion?
Did you lose it with your dignity?
And why is it we fight wars over God?
What happened to Thou Shalt Not Kill?
Is there a footnote:
*Unless we kill for God?
It shouldn't work that way.
And SO MANY people are starving EVERY DAY.
Tell me, who is the FATTEST country?
We have sinned, O Lord. Gluttony.
World Peace
Wolrd Hunger
Global Warming
Is there any solution?
Are we even trying?
Everyone else will die overheated, in a soldier's uniform, ribs showing with bloated bellies
While we eat our grease and are fat, in college, with our cars and air conditioning.
Is this Right?
Or have you Left?

man...

Why doesn't anyone read this?
...............
I'm going to Kansas City this weekend!
I'm excited!

Ok, well, I need some sleep.
:-)
G'night.

Thoughts

MySpace blogs are way too public.

It's funny how you can know someone for so long and they don't even know you. Or you don't even know them. I don't get it.
There seem to be a lot of things I don't get lately.
Like, why so many people have to label everyone else. Who cares? Or why high school is so dramatic. It's retarded. All these girls claiming their in love and acting all serious in relationships...it's RIDICULOUS. WAKE UP! You're in high school. You have your WHOLE life ahead of you. This is NOT all there is. Life doesn't stop and you DON'T have to settle down after high school. I don't get why girls want that anyway. Or why everyone loves God so much.
Get married, have babies, [go to church].
No, thank you.
I want to get the @#$% out of HERE for one thing. I want to see the world and meet people more like myself. It seems to me that lots of kids have lost their passion. Or, if they had it, something snuffs it out. Why do people let other people dictate their lives? It's YOUR life, isn't it? I promise, you have a brain. It's your choice in whether it gets any use.

And WHY do kids change when they get a boyfriend or a girlfriend?
And WHY does everyone have to be dating someone?
So many questions. That won't get answers.
But that doesn't matter.
I just have to survive this.
High school, that is.
Then I'll be FREE. I'll have the world at my fingertips and I can throw myself into work and things that I love and not worry about silly friends and dumb boys. None of this matters.
Except my grades. Even though most of this "knowledge" won't stick, I just need good grades so colleges...you know.
It's all about college and getting a good job, isn't it? Hahaha.
No. Not for me. I expect to not have that much money. But why should that stop me from running after my dreams?
It shouldn't. So, it wouldn't. Because...ha...I said so.
;-)

Good-night, reader. Whoever you are. You don't exist.
--&eeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

Blah blah blah

I should do my homework.
And eat.

I should do homework, because 0's have never really been my thing.
I should eat because I'm hungry.
I should also stop being a bum.
I was going to do something. But I forgot.
So, I'm guessing it wasn't that important.
What homework do I have?
Well, I should study for my Spanish quiz that I missed, due to my TV Production field trip to MSSU. Since, I didn't get to learn them in class because I was gone because of PLAN testing one of the days out of the 4 day week. OH! I also need to finish that packet from Spanish.
For Journalism, I need to write a stupid 500 word 'story' about Drew. But....I didn't get 500 words out of him. STUFFING.
And that's about it. But it'll probably take me awhile, so I should get started.

I talked to this John Roger guy from The Myriad. He's an LOTR nerd. He's real cool. An the band is good.

--Peace

Visit the site!!!

Ok, I know--well, I don't know but I'm pretty sure--that no one reads this.
BUT
please go see http://awindofchange.tripod.com and read the stuff and then with the Yes'm? page you can tell me what you think.
It's nowhere near perfect or done. But it's a start.
TTFN

awindofchange.tripod.com

Hey kids!
I updated a story on [site above...and below I think].
So check it out.
It's not at all done.
But...it's a start.
I've written a little more than what's on there, but I was too tired to finish typing.
Peace,
Moi

Yeah yeah

Ok. So I made another tripod site. But it's JUST mine. I'm going to put things that I write on it. You know, like stories and poems. I haven't added any of that yet. Just the easy junk.
Have a looksee
http://awindofchange.tripod.com/
Well, it's off to bed.

Yesterday, August 10th, 2006

The light flickers wildly for a few seconds but it feels like it will go on forever. But it eventually does stop. And all is covered in Darkness.
The electricity is out
Downstairs on the table there is a flickering candle, throwing it's light around the room, casting strange shadows. It is int the "room" where we eat, in between the library and kitchen. I move to the "formal" dining room and watch through a large window nature's light show. There is no rain, only lightning. The kind of lightning that lights up the whole sky for a few moments, like a huge candle that is relit and snuffed out over and over again.
I decide to move up to my room to see, to be closer to the sky. Even though I really want to go outside and be with the trees, the lightning.
Up in my room, I unlock and push open a window. The wind pushes soft, strong gushes of air on my face. It smells of rain. I feels so good. I feel like I'm flying. I want to drink it all in.
It is so hot in my room. My tower. My cage.

The light is back.
i wish it wasn't...

ARRGH

Ok. Nevermind.
It fixed itself.
As it always does AFTER I say something about it.
Silly Blogger.
............

strange...

When I look at this blog, it shows my Old picture in my "ABOUT ME". But when you click on "VIEW MY COMPLETE PROFILE" it shows my new picture and stuff.
Isn't that just...strange?
{arrgh]

So it begins...

Well, last night was the Relay for Life [Joplin], and Mr. Turner, if you are reading this, Natural Disaster should come next year. All the music--live--SUCKED. Every. Single. One. Of. Them. Yodeled. Who does that?! Really??
Anyway, we didn't sleep, but Callie and my mom slept when we got to the house. I didn't. Because I knew I wouldn't want to get up.
I've just been reading Mr.Turner's new "book" and I'm quite interested so far. Definitely different from the last except for something I noticed.
Last time: a cool teacher loves woman named Sharon
This time: a cool teacher--so far--loves a woman named Sharon.
I'm going to have to ask, Turner, is there a real Sharon?
Please, do tell.
Oh! And before I forget, he was at the Relay. MY Relay. The one that I go to every year. And there he was. But thank God he didn't stay the entire night. The funny thing was, he was with a girl. Hahahahahahahaha.
Moving on...So, as summer vacation starts to come to an end and the feeling of dread that school is starting again becomes less and gives way to excitement, I feel the winds of change.
I subconsciously bought clothes that weren't completely balck. I have even bought some things that aren't black at all. I am seeing this "sunny side of life" that before, seemed farther away. But it's right here. Waiting for me.
I have a feeling that I might have to make new friends yet again this year. I wasn't really planning on that since I had made a bunch last year, but since my schedule does NOT include any of my best friends, I shall have to deal. Or maybe I'll get lots of work done. Who knows? ;-)
Well, I think I'll be off for now.

"Getting away with Murder..."

I thought that he was my friend. He would call me his best friend, even though I didn't really consider him mine, but he was a friend nonetheless. But now he has proved to me--finally--that I should have disliked him all along. Pretty much all of my friends do. Why didn't I? I should have. Why do guys always make me feel so stupid? *slaps self* Anyway. He told the guy I like, alot, that I do. I am so pissed. And upset. Why would you do that to someone you called your friend? He had NO right. If I wanted to tell him, that was for ME to do. Times like these I wish I was strong enough to beat someone up. But, alas, I am weak when it comes to brute strength. Yeah. I think I hate him about the same as Jacob. Who I would LOVE to just kill...I mean...beat up...Yeah. That's what I meant. ;-)
I am in the dark. I don't know what to do. I'm afraid to say anything to the guy I like. What is there to say?

I'm super bored

The title about sums it up. I hung out with Alex and Sydney today. We went to the mall for no reason. Then we saw Scary Movie 4. It was a good one. Es muy comico.
After that, we came to my house and watched most of Brokeback Mountain. I don't know why. I do not want to go to church tomorrow. I want to sleep. A lot....I have stuff I need to do. But I don't want to. Ugh. I wish Hock would've answered his phone. I have no life. Geez. I'm always home. I hate this. I wouldn't care so much if my mom wasn't I always here. I don't like being around her. She makes me angry.
Bye

Searching For The Truth*

yeah...haven't been here in awhile...I'm mostly on Myspace>>> www.myspace.com/chesterx you have to add me to really view my profile though... Anyways, I've been pretty busy with school and such...MAP testing was really a joke this week. Even though it wasn't for real, if they are going to make this so incredibly easy, what's the point? The Comm. Arts "test" was an article about Pompeii and then about 10 multiple choice, super-easy questions and one where we had to "pretend" we were there when Mount Vesuvius erupted.
The math one was really easy too, and I HATE math with a passion.
Let's see...what else have I been up to...Mr. Turner wants me to judge his essay contest. But I've never done this before and I'm afraid I'll somehow screw it up...I have to give it a shot, though.
I've also been on the search for practically unknown bands. Some are all-of-a-sudden "hitting the big time" or whatever, but I've come across:
Lovedrug
Panic! At the Disco
Nightmare of You
those are the ones I have, but there are a few others...
I had to run the mile today. I am slow. Andie=Out of shape. Hmph...Oh well...But somehow I am super skinny. Hooray for metabolism!
Well, I can't think of anything else to write.

♥ Andrea